i have found...

...My new favourite song, Clever Meals by Tegan and Sara :)

I'm relatively happy today, coursework bores me though :/ and for some reason I cannot give up hope that maybe one day?...
I've been told to stop it but I just can't, no-one can control what goes on inside my head and if I get my hopes up only to be crushed once again then so be it. This week has been ridiculously dull apart from the shocking incident in chemistry on Thursday. I joined choir which I am enjoying SO much, someone said my voice was nice, which made my day complete :)
So plans for the rest of the day...finish P.E coursework, play some guitar, watch some tv, my usual then :|

How true...
"I'm nothing if I'm not with you"

sleeeeeeeeep

I'd like to sleep some more please :(
Can it be Friday now?





"It should matter when somebody loves you, shouldn't it?"

black

I seem to be dressed in all black today...aren't I cheerful :/


This pain will heal right? I will be okay? Someone tell me I'm going to be okay at the end of all this?


Roll on Friday please, me and Joshie with films, guitar and poker :)



Ciao xxx

my day/my public apology

My day was okay, I love Lucie, she knows how to cheer me up :)

My Public Apology
I'm really truly sorry about my behavior on Sunday night. I was wrong and just a little slightly hysterical. I've calmed down a lot now and in reference to Cydney's blog, I was not sick but nearly, oh so nearly. I obviously couldn't handle building that many bridges in one day and I know that Cydney won't even acknowledge me right now but I'm working on being less of a prick; I will get it together, if not for me then for you...
Perhaps the dutch courage at Ashley's house wasn't my best idea to date and running to the wreck and getting lost several times didn't help the mood/state I was in. I thought I was prepared for everything but I wasn't and I deserve everything I felt. I just wish you would have hit me in the face but I guess you shouldn't sink to my level of shit personness. I am very sorry to Cydney, Natalie, James and Tom but I also want to thank James for being there for me to cover his coat in tears and hold my hand when I needed to walk and talk, after all the shit I put you through, you're still there for me when I'm sitting in a muddy car park, freezing my arse off.
Again, I'm very sorry to everyone and this concludes my public apology.

bras

"I can undo them, but I can't do them up" this was reeeeally useful when Josh undid my bra in English today, stupid head.
I started rock 'n' roll again today and I majorly fail at foot co-ordination :| but with 5 weeks to go I will hopefully manage it :)
Britain's Got Talent last night was really fun with Ellen, Hannah and Cydney, even though we were frozen outside for hours :(
Skins and Big Bang Theory tonight yayayayayay :)
Non-uniform tomorrow and my interview with Mrs Brennan :/

Tchuss!

bras

"I can undo them, but I can't do them up" this was reeeeally useful when Josh undid my bra in English today, stupid head.
I started rock 'n' roll again today and I majorly fail at foot co-ordination :| but with 5 weeks to go I will hopefully manage it :)
Britain's Got Talent last night was really fun with Ellen, Hannah and Cydney, even though we were frozen outside for hours :(
Skins and Big Bang Theory tonight yayayayayay :)
Non-uniform tomorrow and my interview with Mrs Brennan :/

Tchuss!

marriage.

I really do want to get married but I know it's not going to be happy times all the time but I know now what effect that can have on a household. I do not appreciate being talked to when I really don't want to hear about it, I don't care what happens, I'm more worried about my little brother and how he's feeling. I hate this tension and the fighting and I know it's not my problem so stop trying to reassure me that everything's going to be okay and fucking sort it out. I know that I can talk to people but maybe I just don't want to.

Tomorrow will be awesome I'm so excited, it'll be nice to spend some time with my friends :)

Ciao
xxx

laringitis

Is all gone now, according to the doctor :)

I'm tired, cold and I kind of miss someone a lot right now. I want this week to be better than last and this snow needs to fuck right off. My room's a mess but right now I don't really care, I want my dinner :(


kthnxbai.

curly wurlys

Stupid throat is too sore right now :( My voice has come back again but it hurts to swallow things, especially this curly wurly.

Ellen coming over on Saturday which will hopefully cheer me up a bit and get me out of this rut :)

School report not too bad, I just need to not get ill :P

laringitis

Sore throat, sore neck, unable to swallow much without any pain and gross medicine. JOY. This illness has kept me out of action for a few days but I will be alive and kicking in no time at all!

Happy birthday to Cydney, I'm sorry you won't get your card til after you come back from Poland :P

I'm kinda happy today, Friends now, then Big Bang Theory, then Skins :D

bleugh

Stupid illness has come for me again. Sore and achy throat :(

Ellen cheered me up today though :) I love her lots.

Won't be there for the maths challenge tomorrow but oh well :)

considering everything, I'm in a reasonably good mood for once...

fighting

Trying to fight this one out has taken it's toll so I don't think I'm going to bother anymore. Some nice time with a few good friends will help sort me out so tomorrow and the weekend should be better. I do love my friends but right now, three in particular ♥